Apologizing To God, Certainly

The Need For Apology

This is a write-up about apologizing to God, certainly. When God gave me an online ministry, I was gung-ho about it. No amount of time and money was too much to spend implementing it. You see, this was a mandate from the One who died so that I can live, and live abundantly. That was the reason I went at it with gusto.

People wonder how a medical doctor like myself can believe in God. And I ask, how can you be a doctor, or anyone in healthcare for that matter, and not believe in God? We see patients on respirators and this God is freeing us from all that. Some of us take a deep breath without a gadget or device, free of charge. You do not think that someone higher than yourself is supporting your life and breath? Okay then, but not me. I can say it is not too much to spend a  portion of each day apologizing to God, certainly

So yes, in gratitude for my life, my very breath, I went at the ministry with all my mind, with all my strength and with all my heart. That is, until I relocated to a different city and joined a local church. As the ministry work in that church gradually but surely sucked me in, I slowly abandoned my God-given ministry. Like most acts of displeasing God, this did not happen in one year or even three. 

Mercy Given

But God is merciful and this past week, He got hold of me for a rather uncomfortable conversation. As a result of that discourse, I now find myself apologizing to God. After 72 hours of Jacob-like wrangling, He brought me back to me senses. I might have been hard of hearing, otherwise, He would have gotten through to me sooner. But then, I usually obey quickly once I am convinced my marching orders are from God. This time, He was being gentle, I think, very slowly revealing bits and pieces of His anger. Finally, I had the entire picture like a complete jigsaw puzzle. Perhaps you have been there, where God reveals His desire slowly and deliberately. 

Like the prodigal son who wasted his means on others, I saw that I have been wasting my talents. Please observe that this is not to preach selfishness. Not at all; I plan to continue to be generous with the other gifts with which God has blessed me. However, in the ministry, I will be laser-focused, no matter whose ox is gored. As I wrote that last word, I recall that Peter lost focus and wondered about John and his rumored ability to live forever. Jesus responded with words to the effect of  “just focus.” That speaks to, and about me.

My Resolve After Apologizing To God

After getting on my knees and apologizing, I am now resolved to be focused, God being my helper. Nevertheless, because I have a tendency to dawdle, a tendency that seems to grow with age, I will be needing two things from you. 

Oh no, such support is not financial at all. As a matter of fact, you will find that we were giving money away in an earlier post. For now, we have all the finances we need and please don’t take that the wrong way. It is not arrogance, just a way of focusing your support on that which I really require, and urgently.

Encouragement is what I need and one thing I know of God; He will encourage you as you encourage me. You know how He says that whatever you do to the littlest of my children, you have done for Him? That is how I know He will reward you as you share and like every post.

• First, please pray that God will help me to focus.
• Secondly, please cheer me on by liking, sharing, texting, subscribing and whatever else you know to do in order to encourage me.

You see, I am new to this and don’t yet know all there is to know; so if this post strikes you as amateurish, I apologize. Please understand that it will only get better as time goes on, especially with your support. Of course, the main agenda here is that of apologizing to God, most definitely.

Apologizing And Working Without Delay

Starting work on this right away, without waiting until I know everything about the technicalities of it, is my way of showing to God how sorry I am. It is my strategy for actively apologizing to God. You may know that simply apologizing to God without turning away from sin is useless. Therefore, working, even in this amateurish manner, is my way of turning away from the initial wrongdoing. It is a demonstration of my readiness to resume His mandate on my life, which I had previously abandoned. 

Expect more in the coming days and weeks; they will be on the mandate itself but I needed to get this off my chest first. There is no use sweeping it under the rug. No doubt, I will sleep like a baby tonight, with the weight of sin off my shoulders. Having said that, allow me to encourage you to practice apologizing to God for any way you have abandoned His mandate on your life.

Many times, we think of sin as just the evident works of the flesh – fornication, adultery, murder, stealing, lying and such obvious transgressions. But not serving where and when God wants us to do so is also sinful. We need to get busy apologizing to God. Do it today. You will sleep much better.

Thank you for listening and I am ready for all comments – even harsh ones, knowing that they will only help to make me better-suited for Heaven.

God bless you